I'm About To Snap

I dont know if my sudden mood is from last night ((see blog before this one)), but i dont like it. I literally feel like im going to stab someone in the eye just from saying hi to me. I dont know why im like this. I just woke up like this. This is the first time i can actually say that ive actually woken angry. Im just sick of everything at the moment.

I also feel alone... i have family and "friends" and my lovley girlfriend but thats not enough. Maybe im being selfish? i dont know. I just feel like i havent done much in my life. Maybe thats why im angry... but im young.

I just want things to change.

I Really.. Dont Know

I've just realized that there is about 3 more months of school left. So... there's 3 more months of my high school life left, and seriously... I'm a little upset. I thought i would have done so much more with my life so far.

I look at all of my "friends" and sometimes wish that i had their lives. My life would be so more more interesting. Right now, as it stands... im not fond with my life. Yes, i have an awesome girlfriend who makes me really happy, but other than that, my life is dull.

There are so many things i want to do and so many problems that go along with them. Most of my problems would be solved if i just get a job. Seriously though, its hard getting a job where i am. Im trying hard but yet.. nothing. So until i get a job... i get no respect.

hmm. Time for bed... not like ill be able to sleep now.

Bad Timing

So, i was supposed to get my wisdom tooth out about 3 days ago. Little did i know, i was going to get food posioning the night before my appointment. I spent the next day puking my guts out (along with some of the antibiotic i had to take).

Now, i have to wait another week until i get this tooth out of my mouth (which cut ito my gum, so now i have a hole in my gum)
Hopefully, the same thing doesnt happen next week.

Talk about bad timing -.-

Sitting Around

So, here i am again... at school. Im pretty bored right now. March break just passed and i knew it wasnt going to be good. I was right. Its not the fact that bad things happened. It was just the fact that it was very boring. I am now thinking that i need to do some rearranging in the friend department. Its funny how you are friends at school and you hang out every day and its even the same group of people. Then when you get home, its like you dont exist? Yeah.. welcome to my life, thanks guys -.-

Anyway, back to march break. The first couple of days were fine. I spent time with my girlfriend. She is awesome and makes me happy. When she had to work i spent time alone in my room. This is when i log on to msn or facebook and i ask my so called "friends" if they want to hang out. I didnt find it weird when noone responded. This is how it goes all the time.

Enough about that really. Im just getting sick of it. So here i am now... Monday. Im in school... on my spare, doing nothing.

... fun

Weird Dream x2

So, heres another weird dream i had last night.

I was in this building. It was quite a big building. It looked quite old and looked like it had alot of history behind it. I was in some sort of library, but it was also some sort of supermarket? (Buy a book, get a bottle of 2L Coke for free?)). I was walking down an isle with soda... but it also had meats? So, im walking and all of a sudden Gordon Ramsey comes in and was all like "look at this peice of meat" and he grabs this chunk of meat and out of nowhere he grabs this knife and starts to slice it. Little did i know, the meat had holes inside which contained rolls of money.

So, here i am all like "wtf"? I was so confused. Then Gordon pulls out some sort of map. Where he got the map, i have no idea. Then he was like " We need to go there" and he pointed to some town ((i dont know the name of)). Then hes like "shh, someones coming" and some girl skips across the isle and im like wtf? Then, it goes to some ghetto place and there is this girl and she hears a voice and its talking about Obama. She listens and was like "I dont care about no Obama" then she runs off.

Then my dream goes to this other place where these two girls were waiting in a van waiting for their mother, who was talking to their grandmother or something. The grandmother was talking about how some man is going to take her kids and what not and the two girls in the car were just looking at each other like "what"?

It was so confusing. I really have no idea if that meant something or if it was just some random thing that my mind came up with.

What is Normal?

So... what is normal?

Well, the dictionary says that normal is "conforming to the standard or the common type" and i would just like to say that, what i read there... is a bunch of BULLSHIT. No one is normal.

Everyone is fucked. Everyone is weird. Anyone who says that they themselves is normal can just go die.. or go somewhere. They really don't understand. I guess its because they want to feel like they have NOTHING wrong with them, but in reality.. they have A LOT of things wrong with them.

You know.. some of the greatest minds belong to people with the label "crazy". I just don't understand people these days? Is being "weird" that bad?

X Hours Of Sleep

So i got about 3 hours of sleep last night ((so i think)) and i feel fine. I get that about every night. People on my class always say im crazy but quite frankly, i hate sleep. I hate eating, sleeping and going to the washroom. So mainly... i hate the 3 things a human needs to do. xD

Am i that fucked?